GOOD MORNING!

Now, I realize it might not be morning when you read this. That's okay. I mean this in the - good-morning-after-you-wake-up sort of way - because I think that you, my friend, are waking up.

I know I am. You may have noticed I went a bit quiet on YouTube. One of my subscribers even reached out to make sure I was okay. I am okay! More than okay, actually. But I had to go through some things to get here.

Here's what I'll say: there's a soul lesson I've been circling my entire life. It's about power. About boundaries. About the exhausting labor of making yourself palatable so that no one gets upset, or angry, or disappointed in you. Maybe this is something you, yourself, are quite familiar with. I became very good at being "good" — doing what was expected, playing the role, keeping the peace. And for a long time, I told myself that was just who I was.

Turns out, it wasn't. It was a costume. And it was getting very, very heavy.

It came to a head — as these things do — in family dynamics. (Those of you who caught my December newsletter on dysfunctional family patterns: that didn't come from nowhere. 😉) Without getting into the full years-long drama of it, I'll say this: the Universe tried tapping me, then knocking, and then finally just hit me upside the head with a two-by-four. I got the lesson. Not gracefully. But I got it.

What the lesson was really about — underneath all the family noise — was my feminine power. How I'd learned to shrink it, soften it, make it less threatening to the people around me. And how every time I stopped doing that, someone had a problem with it. For a long time, that was enough to make me pull back.

Not anymore.

Any birth is messy and uncomfortable and a little terrifying. This one was no different. But here I am on the other side of it — not as a new person, but as the person who was always in there, waiting. I'm still reorienting. But I'm awake.

And here's what's been happening while I've been finding my footing.

In February, I led my Your Soul Personality workshop at New Renaissance Bookshop. And something clicked that I can only describe as: oh, this is it. Not performing for a camera, not managing how I come across — leading. Actually leading. Turns out the Leader archetype I've known was a huge part of my purpose yet I couldn't figure out how that puzzle piece fit - well it snapped right into place.

That feeling — of being on purpose, in your power, doing the thing you're actually for — that's what this work is about. Not just as a concept. As a lived experience.

More is coming. I'm running the Your Soul Personality workshop again on March 22nd at 2:30pm at New Renaissance Bookshop, and I would love to see you there if you're in Oregon! If you're not in Oregon, stay tuned, online workshops are coming soon...

I'm also sharing something with you first, before it goes anywhere else: my Soul Type Quiz. It's a fun way to understand yourself and your purpose a little better, and I think you'll find it illuminating — especially if you've been doing your own version of waking up lately.

Which, if you're here, I suspect you are. We all are. That's kind of the whole point of this moment we're living through.

Good morning. It might feel pretty dark outside, but the sun is coming.

— Jillian

What's Fueling Me This Week

• ​How I Tricked Myself Into Believing I Could: It was so soothing to watch this artist paint a pastoral scene as she discussed following her passion for art - even though it was not at all what people thought she would do - and finding her way to believing in herself and making this her career.
• ​Would giving up screens ACTUALLY make me feel more capable....: The algorithm thought I needed to watch this, and the algorithm was right! Following this woman - who turns out to be a beautiful singer with her own cult following - turn off screens for a month, and seeing what she learns, was motivating. I've been turning off the screen entertainment myself (watched this before that point!), and have been finding the deep wisdom in the present moment. It's been lovely.
• ​How Deep Is Your Love Cover By Bee Gees: This is why I love the internet and the new world we are in. These two kids in South Africa (and their very energetic baby brother dancing in the background) perform these amazing songs just chilling in their living room.
• ​What sex trafficking looks like. From someone who lived it. Yes. This is a heavier one. But with everything going on with the Epstein scandal and what is being uncovered, I think this one is worth sharing. This brave woman gives a very clear, honest, and vulnerable instruction on how sex trafficking happens. Many people commented that she should share this in the schools to young people, and I agree.
• ​Ryan Gosling Talks PROJECT HAIL MARY with Reporter Stranded On Side of the Road | INTERVIEW And on a lighter note! Ryan Gosling gets interviewed during a press junket for his new movie. But the guy interviewing him did it from the side of the road in the middle of the desert, because he and his entire crew were stranded. Ryan could not get over it, it was hilarious.

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